Tuesday, August 19, 2008

What's Wrong With Me?

Training started today. I had to bike to the station for about 20 minutes then take a 1 and half hour train ride to the office in Ujiie. Today's training seemed a bit unnecessary. I didn't learn to much but we did make a few lesson plans, and I did get to meet the other ALTs. There were some fun parts but I felt so bad it was somewhat hard to enjoy it.

Lately I've still been having trouble eating here. Even foods I like are making my stomach upset. It doesn't seem to make any sense. I've progressively been feeling worse as the days have gone by. I felt like I was going to faint (never fainted before) and luckily I didn't but I probably felt the worst I've felt since I've been here today. I don't know if I'm actually sick or malnourished (by this point I probably am malnourished) or if it's a psychological problem (probably both). I'll be really angry/upset with myself if I have to quit because I can't start feeling better.

Anyways once I got back from training tonight I went searching for a rice cooker. Once I find one I hopefully will be able to make and eat some rice and start feeling better. Today I went to three stores and no dice. I had help from friends online on how to ask if they had one (Thanks!), but still I couldn't find one.

Tomorrow I'll check another store but for now I'll try to eat what I can.



That's bad O.o
I hope you get better soon...

mama san said...

STOP saying and thinking that you might need to go home. you are just stressed and tired about the whole idea of being there alone. See a doctor next week. Hang in there baby. I love you.

Mandy said...

I hope you are feeling better now!