Weird Dream

Man, last night I had a weird dream.....

I don't even know where to begin. I think it was a double dream in that I was still asleep but I had two different dreams. The first thing I remember was that I was at this bakery, watching them make and sell their stuff, but I wasn't even behind the counter I was just standing in front, and watching. For some reason there was a Camera man there who was filming the whole thing. Apparently the bakery was going to be on a TV show. What was dumb was that it wasn't even a nice bakery is was like a dinky kiosk like store. There was like 2 cakes that were like mediocre, you could probably make or buy them from like Wal-mart hah. What else was weird is that my ex-girlfriend Angela was working there and some of my other friends from childhood. I don't think I talked to anyone working there, I just watched the bakery do its work lol. After the bakery closed I wrote something on one of the nearby wooden railing tops. I wrote (for some reason with ashes and my finger) I really enjoyed watching, and when I get home I'll watch the show and I signed it NY -for some reason. -- Really weird.

Now I don't know if that was connected or not -- but in the next part of my dream I was Antonio Banderas for some reason and I was being chased by Robert De Nero. He was some type of bad guy. I remember driving up this huge steep mountain with this other guy who I think was my partner (I think I was a cop) but I didn't know his name. We got like either ambushed or somehow our car got flipped upside down. We both scrambled away and I survived he didn't. Anyways after that it was like a goose chase for me to hunt De Nero and avenge my partner. He was some psychopathic killer, and for some reason I had to stop him. I remember trying to like infiltrate this area by metro rail. I kept having to kill these henchmen guys and sneak by them. I also thought he had killed or kidnapped my family or something so I had to stop him.



After this part these is a huge gap.. and then I finally catch De Nero or see him. I go after him but instead of like tackling him we start to talk. After me (as Antonio Banderas) and De Nero talk are both start crying because both our lives are ruined. Somehow we both realize that we just miserable and suffering so we stop fighting. After that I woke up and came back to reality lol.


Anyways it didn't make much sense, but it was kind of ridiculous.

日本語のレッスン

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Introduction

Japanese

私はニコラスロカドです。
はじめまして。
アメリカのニューヨークにすんでいます
私は二十一さいです。
私は英語の先生をします。
日本語はすこしはなせます。
日本語をおしえてください。
あえてよかったです、どうぞよろしくおねがいします。

English

I am Nicholas Lockard. Pleased to you meet you. I live in America, but more specifically New York. I am 21 years old. I will be an English teacher. I know how to speak a little Japanese. Please teach me Japanese. I am pleased to meet you, please be kind to me.

This is what I'll stick with for now until I move. This will obviously change around some once I actually get there. I will turn 22 once I get there. I also won't live in NY anymore haha.

Tip ＃１- When telling people where you live - It is best to say a broad area and then the specific area (if necessary). You do this by adding a の (no).

Ex.
とちぎ　の　さの　にすんでいます。

This literally means Tochigi, Sano I live. I think its translated to I live in Tochigi, but more specifically Sano.

Another Tip - Apparently a really, really polite way of replying to 元気ですか？　Is to say -

元気です。　あなた　は　いかが　ですか？　People will be like Wow - you're a foreigner and you said that.　Apparently it is more intellectual sounding.

Some tips!

It Has Been a While

It has been a while since I last posted. UPDATE! Right now I'm in New York waiting/searching for a job to make as much money as I can because come August I'M GOING BACK TO JAPAN!! I've decided to teach English in Japan for the next nine months of my life. This decision and decision process was a very difficult one for me to make (as some may know).

Overall I think this decision to go back will bring me the most happiness. I feel that if I denied the job offer and basically another chance to go back to Japan I would of deeply and greatly regretted it. I know once I decide to come back to America (assuming I want to after my nine months there) I will have to start looking for a job again, but right now the job market sucks and I don't see myself enjoying any job I could get here. I feel teaching (especially kids) is more suitable to my personality. Being cooped up all summer in a cubicle just isn't my style. If I can go to a place completely alone, get a fresh start and meet new people in a foreign country and just enjoy life what would stop me from doing the same in America or for that matter anywhere? This trip will significantly boost my confidence to take on the world.

America can be a good place too. There certainly are great areas, and great communities. I feel in Japan I will get the sense of community I really want in America. Being respected and contributing person in a community is something I feel is very important and we have somewhat lost in some communities in America.

Japan is a wonderful place and even though my experience in Sano (the city I will be living) will be entirely different than my previous experience in Tokyo, I can almost guarantee I will have some of the best memories and times of my life.

This will be the first time I will be on my own for both my birthday, Christmas and New Years, but I think by December I'll have some really good friends, and a great community in Japan that will be happy to have me as company in their homes.

On a side note I figure if I plan on learning more Japanese I'd say Japan is a good place to start.

In other news for some strange reason I keep thinking about this: To me it's weird that after great moments or turning points in our lives have past the only somewhat tangible things we have are our memories. (That can be somewhat depressing but it depends on how you look at it).
I've been listening to this song called Yellow Moon by Akeboshi. I like it, and in Japanese I suppose it makes sense but the English translation comes out as follows

Romaji

Kinou wa call sign,
Zenbu, keitai de
Norenai fuzz guitar
Hen na kouen de

Muchuu de motor bike,
Kaze wo oikoshite
Mikazuki wa hisuterii,
Boku no ue de
Chikyuu wa goorurain,
Inu mo raion mo
Kasei ni moving on.
Nanka mendou de

English

All day yesterday
My cellphone’s call signal kept going off
An out-of-tune fuzz guitar
In a strange park

On my motorbike, oblivious
Overtaking the wind
The crescent moon is history
Above me
The earth is my goal line
The dogs and the lions
Are all moving on to Venus
It’s kind of annoying

I need to practice my Japanese so I don't accidentally say some of these lyrics ahhaha. So for now じゃ、また。

Soul Searching

After graduating, I need to figure out what I want to do with my life. Some serious soul searching needs to be done. My best option is to just send a million applications out and see what bites. I have so many options its unfortunately paralyzing. The problem is that theres this phenomenon where when faced with many options or possible decisions I sometimes end up choosing one of the worst ones. I can't remember exactly where I read it but it is a common phenomenon.

For the first time in my life I lack any real direction. Sometimes I wish someone would just tell me go do this, and I could go do it. Right now my life is completely in my own hands and it just feels weird to not be tied down anywhere. Its like opening a door and on the other side there's 50 tunnels leading down different paths, some of which have a beacon of light at the end but the end is so far off I can't tell which do and which don't. The problem is some tunnels may collapse and others may lead to happiness, but I have no idea where each will take me.

My options really lie in just where I want to live. Sometimes I feel like a fresh start would be perfect and other times I realize how important being near friends and family really is. They've all been there for me whenever I've needed, and I really appreciate everything everyone has done for me. I would never have made it this far in life if it wasn't for them. Unfortunately I've never been anywhere completely and utterly alone, even when I studied abroad in Japan I was with friends. On the other hand I've moved all over the place throughout my life and was fine making new friends. Having moved around so much as a kid a part of me just wants to move one place and live there. A sense of community and belonging is important.

Over all of this uncertainty there is one thing I do know, the most important thing to me is happiness.